Suffocating In Lonliness

Darkest Star In The Sky

With outstretched arms I reach
into the darkness around.
Expecting to find comfort,
but given only cold emptiness.
I beg to have a light.
One stable enough to guide me through.
For my match is quick to fade,
inviting back all of these demons

Pleading to the void to deliver me
either a new beginning
or finality to the story
where the words repeat,
"Oh worthless wretched fool,
hear they ring you hollow.
Marvel at the open hand
that beguiles you from the other.

A closed fist, ready to strike.
To turn back the hands of progress.
You will never be enough,
for who cares to love a husk?
Summer never warmed you.
Winter never blanketed you.
Spring never bloomed for you
All you are left with is the fall.

Take up your mantle in the heavens,
Darkest Star in the sky,
falling fast to grant a wish
that you've wished 1000 times."
I wet these pages every with every read
both with tears and blood.
Serving then as freshly dripped ink
for my ever growing opus.

I cannot breathe this silence.
It's fills my lungs with painful doubt,
that there is no salvation here
except that which cascades.
Accept me home Maria,
I'm sorry for my sins.
The bastard son is tired now
and I really just want to sleep.

Please,
let me sleep.