Feel nothing , everything i wanna do ,i just dont wanna do .. what is that?

@exita Not really. You can force it sometimes and that can knock you out of the funk, but sometimes you just have to ride it out and survive.

@raysam363 This

@raysam363 wow great dicription!

@BlueVeins thank you so much

@SinlessOnslaught thank you so much

@rckt148 who's the boss ??for what? I don't get it

@exita you can control what you think
thereby control how you feel (unless you have a sickness or disability)

I am disabled ,and I love to work
I lost my Mom and my girl friend a few years ago
I went into seclusion and wanted to die ,,that lasted for 2 years
unable to work and now I am alone too
(I do get my son on the weekends but I have been alone 5 days a week a long time ,I could go nuts from boredom or find things I like to entertain myself)

I finally shook it off ,and this was not the first time I let depression cripple me

I can still walk ,and there are still a lot of things I enjoy
So I can lay here and let my mind depress me and rob me of the life I have left ,,or I can find things that make me happy ,and stop allowing depressing things control me

I have lost a lot ,,but I still have a lot to give
and time I could be with people I love ,,not just laying here sleeping
my mind on nothing except how bad I hurt

It was an example ,I know not everyone is me
But I learned I can control what I allow myself to think
there by control my mood
When I feel good ,I am more likely to do things I enjoy
My body has already taken a lot from me ,,I refuse to let my mind steal what I have left ,,I am running out of time ,I don't want to waste it

Make any sense ?