I Remember My First Kiss
Still Baffled... As a male, I am sure I will be one of the minority writing on this memory.
However, it is an experience that occasionally still comes to mind.
This goes back in time to about the age of 5 or 6. I don't remember being
all that interested in girls of any sort. (much rather be playing cowboy or
army)There was ONE distinct exception. That exception was my cousin
LIZ.
Whenever our families got together every couple of months, I got the
strangest feeling throughout my entire body. I couldn't wait to see her,
and apparently she felt the same way. I don't understand it 'til this day.
She certainly was a pretty girl, with PERFECT features and long little girl
locks. (not just my remembrances- she was a catalog model until 12 years
old). But it was more than just appearances. I vividly recall a sort of tingly
feeling (almost electric like) that has never been duplicated. We would
always find a way to sneak away from the families (usually a clothes closet)
and hold each other. I wasn't long before I kissed my first girl. This special
feeling never dissipated.
As is so often the case, our families in time got busier and moved further
apart, so that we didn't often get the opportunity to see each other.
......Then by sheer coincidence, I ran into Liz at about the age of 21.
Amazingly, the "lightning bolt" struck again. That very same unique feeling
was immediately back.We couldn't keep our hands off of each other from the
minute we reunited. The relationship kept getting more involved, until my
mother found out.
I was always close with my Mom and we had a great relationship. That's
probably why I took it so seriously when she SCREAMED and PREACHED
at me, about the situation with my first cousin. Soon after, Liz and I stopped
seeing each other.
I often wonder if I made the right decision........
However, it is an experience that occasionally still comes to mind.
This goes back in time to about the age of 5 or 6. I don't remember being
all that interested in girls of any sort. (much rather be playing cowboy or
army)There was ONE distinct exception. That exception was my cousin
LIZ.
Whenever our families got together every couple of months, I got the
strangest feeling throughout my entire body. I couldn't wait to see her,
and apparently she felt the same way. I don't understand it 'til this day.
She certainly was a pretty girl, with PERFECT features and long little girl
locks. (not just my remembrances- she was a catalog model until 12 years
old). But it was more than just appearances. I vividly recall a sort of tingly
feeling (almost electric like) that has never been duplicated. We would
always find a way to sneak away from the families (usually a clothes closet)
and hold each other. I wasn't long before I kissed my first girl. This special
feeling never dissipated.
As is so often the case, our families in time got busier and moved further
apart, so that we didn't often get the opportunity to see each other.
......Then by sheer coincidence, I ran into Liz at about the age of 21.
Amazingly, the "lightning bolt" struck again. That very same unique feeling
was immediately back.We couldn't keep our hands off of each other from the
minute we reunited. The relationship kept getting more involved, until my
mother found out.
I was always close with my Mom and we had a great relationship. That's
probably why I took it so seriously when she SCREAMED and PREACHED
at me, about the situation with my first cousin. Soon after, Liz and I stopped
seeing each other.
I often wonder if I made the right decision........
46-50, M