Ugh just kill me [I Am So Stressed]

So the doctors are finally showing concerned for my ear problems now that I have ringing in both my ears. I thought my inner ear infection was just not fixed still somehow but they said it’s completely gone and the ringing in another ear is unconnected and it’s possible it’s a tumor in my head causing it. I don’t have any medical insurance anymore though so I can’t get it checked or go to the specialist they told me about. I really, really hate this bs. Its ridiculous how we don’t have any real health care thats not ridiculously expensive in this country and who knows maybe I’ll die before I have anything else to stress me out.