I Have Lost Hope

Every time I think things are going okay in my life, something terrible happens and another piece of me dies. Little by little I am losing all hope in being happy. Every day, I try to be positive, but by the end of it I just want to close myself in my room and cry.

Unfortunately I have to bottle it all up, because otherwise my significant other will ask me what’s wrong. Why can’t I just cry about my life without being questioned? Why do I always have to put on my game face when I’m hurting inside and just want to break down? Life isn’t easy! We all know this.

We can’t keep expecting things to get better when we know we’re just going to die eventually anyway. It’s all in the matter of how it all plays out. I keep asking myself if I will ever live comfortably. That’s all I really want now. If I can never have that, what the hell is the point????