Life is painful in a strange way sometimes. I've found that I've experienced many things I wanted to experience. But not the specific way I wanted to.

So there's a giant hole left in my heart.

I'm sad yet I'm happy.
I'm happy yet I'm sad.
I'd like to feel complete.

I've gotten better and have improved in a lot of ways but realizing this is frustrating.

I'm soul searching, looking for answers and seeking others advice and wisdom.

If you'd like to share your own experiences or perspectives on the matter feel free to do so. Hope you're all doing well.

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thepreposterouspanda · 36-40, M

I have wrestled with this since I've been disabled. I'm so proud of my siblings and everything they've accomplished, the people they've grown into, etc., but it also rips into my soul because I haven't. I'm almost 32, and I'm still jobless, degree-less, whatever. Life just got in the way, and has continued to... and I've gotten in my own way more than once.

The universe doesn't have any sympathy for our tiny tragedies, it would seem.

AuRevoir · 36-40, M

@thepreposterouspanda If I get to the point of being able to help more, it's stories like yours that make me want to reach out as much as possible.