Here I am finally in a better place mentally wise

In fact better than f'ing better than I ever ever have been. And then here I am now..
Thinking again.. I guess there are a few things to sort out which I will but it's got my mind a going going going..
Have u ever felt like u r doing so well and bAM something triggers old feelings... Stirs up old thoughts... And u almost feel guilty like ur bad for doing so but can't help it... Feel bad but yet you know it wouldn't be a major set back just need a Lil bit to sort this thing out?
I mean I have had this focus starting Jan 1 this year in manyany areas of my life.. Yeah my thinking is a lot of it.. Being more positive and doing things that will keep taking me in the direction I wanna go. More insight on many things with reading and listening to the people around me and picking up on things bring a fresh new perspective on things.
Idk
I feel blah today... And a Lil depressed.. And for a week now. Not that o have stopped carrying on but IDK not sure how to explain this... But I don't like it.
Too much going on in my head to get shot straight. Reflecting... And all that.. Ugh.

Contemplative · 36-40, M

I can relate, it’s easy for my mind to go in circles when I’m Hungry, Angry, Lonely Tired (H.A.L.T) not to be corny. But it’s true if I’m any of those things I address it quickly and I tend to balance out. When things spiral down for me it seems like everything is going wrong and in some ways it is, I’m tired so I make bad decisions which make me feel worse which give me something else to beat me up about, just as an example. But usually I’ll pickup that that is going on and will let go of all my plans and sleep it off, the next day is always better.