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Addiction is a hard thing to overcome. It is a daily battle that you either fight or give into. Look at this as 5 months of fighting the battle and winning and a few days where you let your guard down and let your addiction win. The important thing to remember is what you're fighting for and how far you come. Everyone has the right to go to a shitty place sometimes, it's just not okay to stay there. You got this!

Can't let this mess you up. There are bumps on the road. Just get back on the road.

you were successful for 5 months, you can succeed again. there are two things to keep in mind about addiction: 1:the addiction will never completely go away so don't expect it to go away, live with it like a bad knee that sometimes hurts. if you get used to the sensation of need without acting on it, it can't control you anymore.
2: accept that you have an addictive personality, don't ever fool yourself into thinking that you can go back to it and control it, you won't. tell yourself" the reason why I cannot take any of this is because I am an addict and will not be able to control myself". I said these words many times when people asked me why I don't do it anymore, I answer that I cannot do it because I cant control myself.

Well it happened. You know what to do. I'm cheering for you. I know you don't know me from shit. But I've battled addiction my whole life.Went16 years without once. Don't shame yourself be proud and try again. Took balls to say that even if just on here. If you don't mind strangers I could use a friend and I'm not a stalker,needy,or a perv. Ok maybe a little on that last one but I keep it behind closed doors.I Got kids a job normal bullshit and a habit.