When I’m on social media, not much, I find myself not liking my cousins posts of her new baby. I was supposed to be part time nanny for her...but she got another, a stranger barely known a couple months. I used to sit for my cousins friend, and when an emergency occurred with the child I was unable to go in ambulance with him as I had his baby sis inside. The friend chastised me beyond anything even though he was safe and getting help... my cousin knew of incident and barely said much, I felt no support....so now I’m sure she got another because she listened to the friend or fears an emergency....I’ve been nothing but loving and safe with ANY child so it hurts she got another nanny.... I don’t have it in me to hang out now or like her posts.... how can I not feel guilty anymore ?