Are you afraid of being your true self in front of others because the thought of not fitting is always present?

The only thing i don't openly discuss in public is my view on politics and various conspiracy theories. People Tend to become inquisitors when they sense i don't follow the general paradigm.

In the past but the older I get the less I care about what people think of me.

that would be fake and I would have to maintain the lies....very unhealthy

When I was a kid, yes I cared. Not anymore, I am myself.