Im feeling conflicted

Met the guy I've been chatting online with for 5 months. There was a little more touching/kissing than I was expecting and tbh it surprised me just a little lol. We had a good time though- we went to the park and he taught me how to play Pokémon Go

Really into this guy but he's wayy older than me. Scared to tell my friends/family about it. If we end up married I wouldn't grow old with him. I'm sure there's other challenges in those sorts of relationships I don't even know about

Blah. Meet someone thats nice to me and I get scared of judgment. Lame