I keep asking all these questions about why I'm so unlovable...

But I think deep down I know what's wrong with me.
I picked the guy. Yes he added me on Facebook but he is a social climber. He lurked to observe the women within his list. The decisions he was making was based upon their success and how it would benefit him.
I a nobody had no right. And he made damn sure I knew that.

So I should stop blaming him.

I knew I wasn't up to the part.
But I tried to keep what really didn't belong to me.

We shouldn't have lasted longer than a year. I knew that then and I've been denying it ever since.

I moan because I'm in denial.

We don't have anything in common.
Even if we do.

I wasn't what he wanted.

I let myself down.
Not him.

Yea I know I'm going around in circles, because I don't like to admit to being wrong.
I truly believed that I had what it took to be what he wanted, but he couldn't accept me as I was, I needed to always be more, or less myself. Why? Because he didn't even like me.
My self esteem so low that I took it. Just because he was the only guy I liked that called me his girlfriend.
But he treated me like some kind of stray dog.