i fall in love with a guy

@elafina preducied is a judgement and when your in that frame of mind , you can end up getting it all wrong . And thoughts of regrets comes in , especially if you him with someone else .
Usually if he's into nature he see's the bigger picture and more often he'd have to power to let you go instead you leaving him go . It might not upset him as much . If I was you I'd think

@MakeAspirit but i'm afraid too you know .. i wouldn't like to get much into the why . i read what you write though.

@elafina I understand your afraid . I was afraid that I actually felt loved and that's why I pushed everyone that came in my way away from me cause I was so used to be on my own .

this bitterness that your text holds is not close to love and not (me and him)
sorry for saying that to you. perhaps another moment i could hold myself.
you are getting mixed messages because i am all of it. i agree at where you say to let him go and find someone who will not judge him and just love him.
but the world ain't perfect and i ain't that bad either..:)
i've got to go now!

@elafina bitterness? what do I have to be bitter about here? Girl, you are very confused about everything. and a coward and a snob

@Fernie what you get is me opening myself and trying to go into my deeper me and be honest about that. You shouldn't be aggressive when people show this kind of vulnerability because you can scare them and close theirselves and feel sad for no real reason.
And i'm a little snob you're right, that's my defence. I got defensive because you denied me the ability to call love that thing i am feeling, as if love has some definition saying that it has to last forever or fullfil certain criteria.

@elafina they took the fifth-graders and had a class about basic personal hygiene this year at the public schools. About bathing regularly, using deodorant, changing socks etc. They wouldn’t find a need to do that if parents were communicating these things to their children and making sure that they do it. Kind of sad.

@cherokeepatti thanks for pointing out that about the parents. kind of sad indeed

@elafina kids will come to school smelling like cat urine or pee sometimes, I worked part time in a little elementary school office when I was going to high school and that was 45 years ago.

@SW-User i think of it like this sometimes, but i want to protect myself .. as i tend to get into risky situations and well
can't i escape from love or from my pattern / karma / what else you call it ?
maybe i just say too much.
i understand you though

@elafina I didn’t mean to offend you with what I wrote. I have worked with several people who’s body odor could gag a maggot. So I don’t have any tolerance for those who don’t care to clean up before coming to work.

you didn't offend me at all. i am having some difficulty accepting that too, as i'm someone who showers often and takes care of personal hygiene too, but as i've met people who shower always twice a day and wear deodorant and perfume and make up and body lotion and lip balm, eye creams, nail creams, hand creams, feet creams, etc, and you know
i mean there are people who consider me to be dirty too as i am thinking about him, but from a different scale, that is all i know. I wash my hair once in three days and there are girls and guys going eww on that.
But apart from all these, i have to agree that there are some standards and a daily shower, at least the hot months, is amongst them.

@elafina some people can get by with skipping a day or two washing their hair, no problem if their hair isn’t really oil...it’s the sweat glands and bacteria on the body that creates the odor. And just basic hygiene to clean up. I have a problem wearing most perfumes so it’s rare that I wear any, and I don’t get manicures & wear fingernail polish, have problems with chemicals like those. Just basic hygiene is good.

@easterniowegin he's doing silly jobs, here and there, he goes fishing and he's training(body) in different kind of things

@SW-User i know 😊 story of my life

@SW-User non existent for the moment, we didn't get there

@Reflection2 yes as i said (perhaps i'm totally stupid and) i really do not want to hurt this guy
you're so right, education should resolve distances not create them. i've to live with that