Should I feel bad for not wanting my friends to do the same things my crush does to me ahaha

My crush likes to touch my hair or play with my hands and stuff, and for the longest time I've been looking at all those stuff as signs my crush may like me. (there are other signs too that my friends would never do cuz that'd be a bit weird) but sometimes when my friends do that (the more normal stuff) to me, like touch and braid my hair I feel like slapping their hands away cuz it kinda makes it into a 'friend' thing and makes it less special(?) ahaha idk.

I've been seeing my crush the past weekends so I really really miss beng able to physically see and touch my crush. :-/ My birthday's coming up and I feel like spending the day with my crush but I feel bad for even thinking of blowing off my friends for the day ahaha.