I dont mean to have a pity party, but some people have no idea
Some people have no idea what it's like to be single for a while, being easliy able to get a new partner. It's been a loooong time, and I've had a taste of it recently (I can never be with the person, but) and it just makes me feel that much worse knowing what I'm missing. It sucks being alone, I know I gotta find my own self worth blah blah blah. But still, it takes it's toll after a while.