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I Hate Myself

1. I am incompetent and can't comprehend anything at my job
2. I keep failing the CPA exams
3. I am painfully shy and lacking confidence
4. I hate looking in the mirror
5. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for a while
6. I am pessimist at heart.
7. My family sucks
8. I dont know how to drive
9. I have never had a relationship last longer than 1 month.
10. I have a gigantic crush on a female manager at work and its ruining my life
11. I hold back when speaking to someone of high authority at work
12. I DREAD coming out of bed in the mornings to go to work.
13. I don't make enough money to afford my own place but I work all the time.
14. I arrange my thoughts mentally but have huge difficulty articulating them.
15. I absolutely despise my father.
Specialyouare · 31-35, F
1. You’re still there, take everything step by step. People complain always no matter what, so never take anything personally. Just try your personal best.
2. Try again as long as you want to try again, or find another pathway to a career or job you want to get involved in.
3. Everyone lacks confidence, except everyone is great at acting. Everywhere you go people are desperate for attention or Facebook wouldn’t exist. Learn to “act” but take nothing personally.
4. The mirror displays the one who has the true potential to love you and accept you unconditionally.
5. None of us chose to exist, our bodies, mind, or world. We are forced to adapt and the conditions to avoid punishment and aim for a reward are a emotional challenge for ALL of us, don’t fall for those who play a facade.
6. You are a survivor, you are alive, you made it through your baby, toddler years even when you weren’t capable of caring for your own self, a time we don’t even remember... and you’re still here, striving.
7. Family does try to control us, yes, it’s really rough. They want to make an appearance, and like every other human tell us what to do all the time and get angry when we contradict them, choose your battles, if you don’t live with them, at least you have your own space for mental clarity.
8. I don’t know how to drive or have a car. I walk to my job and am able to pay my bills. Cars aren’t for everybody. You can be a pedestrian or a bus rider, your worth is greater than a car or any material possession! If you want to drive, drive. If you don’t, find a different way. 👍
9. Relationships are manipulation and control. Did you text me first? You’re too clingy. You didn’t text me? You don’t even care about me like I care for you. People= Manipulation. Again pick your battles and only be reciprocal with those you note want to genuinely invest in you, otherwise just invest in YOURSELF! Be your own mentor and teacher.
10. I’m in love with a gay guy at work. He knows about it too. The way I see it, I love him, sure I may never be able to express it intimately physically but the feeling I feel when he smiles or jokes around and is happy brings me greater joy than possessing or wanting to control him in any way. Enjoy your sentiments. They are beautiful! They are what makes you... you. They are what inspire poetry, song, dance, and intimacy with oneself!
11. Good. Respect for authority is what helps us keep our job. Get your paycheck. Try your personal best, they will always pressure for more and more speed and productivity, just don’t take it personally, do your best, and keep a good attitude.
12. Just get out of bed without the thought of work. Think... I’m getting out of bed to eat breakfast... now I will brush my teeth... now I will get dressed... now I’m going to learn to control my mind when other pressure and want, want, want... I will control my mind... step by step... step by step.
13. Keep saving. And when you go to the bathroom, take a shower, or have silence around you... let “your own place in your mind” be one that LOVES you and your amazing efforts you do daily!
14. Words were invented by man and limiting, there is so much we feel that words can’t even begin to describe. That’s why we can’t be adequately defined, why no label can define us.
15. Fathers are people. People always use, use, use. Contradict them... they go crazy. Nod your head... they don’t yell and want more, and talk your ear off but then.... you have peace in your mind when you finally have alone time.

You are a warrior, a survivor, an example to many you haven’t even noticed they watch you! Thank you for being YOU... just the way you are! ✨ I’m inspired by the humility of a person willing to write all you have written. You are more awesome than you have even begun to realize! Thank you for being YOU! 🎊✨💫
iamnikki · 31-35, F
If you are new at work, it's normal to feel incompetent. I'm at my job for 5 months now and am just starting to feel like I know what I'm doing. But things change alot at work. So it's hard when you're trying to learn, but things change weekly...I'm shy as well, just take small steps. Practice with folk outside of work, such as those working at the grocery stores, shops, wherever else you go.
My family sucks too...keep practicing driving, you'll get it eventually. I've only been in one relationship at my old age so don't feel bad. I dread getting out of bed for work as well. I'm sleepy right now and should go to bed but if I do, I'll be at work even faster, since to me, time flies when you are sleep.
Try Toastmasters to try and help with your public speaking...conquer your fears...
Specialyouare · 31-35, F
I love Toastmasters! So glad someone on here knows about them too!
Tatsumi · 31-35, M
Oe thing at a time, chica. One problem at a time. One small step at a time. But it's good you've got a list.

Now you can go through each one, determine whether or not that issue is solvable--and, if it isn't, try to adjust your perception and accept it.

And, if it is solvable, what steps are necessary to solve it.

Oh fuck, wrong pic. xD It was bundy with his hand down his pants. I don't think that's applicable here. This is what I meant:

CoffeeFirst · 56-60, F
Eat the elephant one teaspoon at a time. So what's your first teaspoon-full?
th3r0n · 41-45, M
Well that's pretty rough. I hear people who doubt themselves don't test well at all because they doubt themselves and don't use their correct answers and choose the wrong ones.

Perhaps if you can find some faith you will be able to pass the CPA exam and make the money you need to get out of your nightmare
IWasCallingYaLarry · 26-30, M
Wow. We have a lot in common. That makes 2 of us.
We have a lot of things in common

 
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