I Am Not the Person I Used to Be
It’s about goddamn time. No words can fully express how amazing it feels to be able to say so. I still have a lot more to get done, but this change in myself over the past year is what I take so much pride in. I’ve become so much better in EVERY way possible. I’ve worked hard to change things in a few months that I thought would take years.
Over the past few months, I’ve found myself some REAL jobs, started saving up and I’ve finally made some plans for possible careers. I know what I’m aiming for in the future now. It feels so great to finally be able to answer school and job related questions with straight answers whenever I’m asked. It’s not that I never had any ideas or goals, I just had too much that I wanted to do and it wasn’t realistic.
I don’t live a dull life, but I felt like I was moving at a slow pace and that I should switch things up a bit. With that being said, I decided to branch out a little more and become a bit more talkative and flirtatious than I usually am. I’m private and consider myself to be an introvert, but I do know how to have a good time and it’s pretty easy to become cool with most people. I’ve made a few friends/acquaintances here and there around town who gave me connections to new places, things, etc. I’ve also been experimenting with these things and it’s very…interesting to say the least haha. It’s amazing how much passes you by when you don’t branch out sometimes. I’m not even worried about going too wild with all of these new exciting things that I’ve brought into my life since I do a good job at keeping myself on track and out of trouble.
I can’t remember the last time I’ve been on top of my game like this. So many things have changed for the better, those were just a few vague ones. I feel so focused, disciplined and as if there isn’t shit that can keep me down. I’ve learned to rationalize my emotions. I can handle certain things without crumbling or exploding. I spend very little time overthinking about negative bullshit. I know what to use my time and efforts on and what really isn’t worth it anymore. I don’t have to wait for anyone to tell me I’m doing great or what kind of person I am, I state that myself. My habit of constantly setting new goals and obsession for self-improvement is what keeps me in high spirits. It seems like there’s always something for me to look forward to. The people who are genuine towards me and add positivity to my life are greatly appreciated as well, they’re the ones who I’m going to make sure I do right by in return.
Over the past few months, I’ve found myself some REAL jobs, started saving up and I’ve finally made some plans for possible careers. I know what I’m aiming for in the future now. It feels so great to finally be able to answer school and job related questions with straight answers whenever I’m asked. It’s not that I never had any ideas or goals, I just had too much that I wanted to do and it wasn’t realistic.
I don’t live a dull life, but I felt like I was moving at a slow pace and that I should switch things up a bit. With that being said, I decided to branch out a little more and become a bit more talkative and flirtatious than I usually am. I’m private and consider myself to be an introvert, but I do know how to have a good time and it’s pretty easy to become cool with most people. I’ve made a few friends/acquaintances here and there around town who gave me connections to new places, things, etc. I’ve also been experimenting with these things and it’s very…interesting to say the least haha. It’s amazing how much passes you by when you don’t branch out sometimes. I’m not even worried about going too wild with all of these new exciting things that I’ve brought into my life since I do a good job at keeping myself on track and out of trouble.
I can’t remember the last time I’ve been on top of my game like this. So many things have changed for the better, those were just a few vague ones. I feel so focused, disciplined and as if there isn’t shit that can keep me down. I’ve learned to rationalize my emotions. I can handle certain things without crumbling or exploding. I spend very little time overthinking about negative bullshit. I know what to use my time and efforts on and what really isn’t worth it anymore. I don’t have to wait for anyone to tell me I’m doing great or what kind of person I am, I state that myself. My habit of constantly setting new goals and obsession for self-improvement is what keeps me in high spirits. It seems like there’s always something for me to look forward to. The people who are genuine towards me and add positivity to my life are greatly appreciated as well, they’re the ones who I’m going to make sure I do right by in return.
