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I Would Go Back In Time If I Could

Go back and fix my mistakes stop my stupid decisions
Stop me from hurting those I love
Make it so I can wear short sleeves without feeling eyes on my wrists
Just to stop the pain
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rckt148 · 61-69, M
Well I have learned from my mistakes
finally come to grips with who I am
and finally happy with who I have became
maybe with you being young you would not alter anything important
But with every mistake I've made ,life always turned around
I am scared ,and even though the scars on my wrists are not from attempted suicide ,most people think they are
mine are actually from rescuing people ,not harming myself
But any events I changed might alter my now
Its not worth the risk to me
I might save myself some pain ,and not hurt so many people
But I also might not be in the place I am today
Life is a series of lessons ,,learn from them
face your fears ,don't run from them
fix the things you can ,accept the things you can't
We can't go back one second no matter how hard we wish we could
Live for today ,your not promised tomorrow
It will have enough challenges of its own
Love who you are today
Forgive ,,and don't forget to forgive yourself
thats all we can do ,,wishing is not going to change anything
it only wastes time ,,some of us don't have
SW-User
@rckt148 forgiving myself is proving to be the hardest
rckt148 · 61-69, M
@SW-User it was for me too
I am bad about not wanting to let go
and believing everything was my fault alone
(growing up with an abusive Mom who blames everything on you will do that to you )
But I learned to take life day by day
Trying each day to do better then the day before
I put myself out there ,I am working to be a better person
you see things in me that need work ,tell me ,I'll work on it ,,( only a fool wont take correction when they are wrong)
I have accepted I can't fix my past ,some parts I will never live down ,all I can do is prove to myself ,I am no longer that man ,and my failures were lessons ,a base line to learn from ,,,but I am not the only one in this world who has ever made them ,,anyone who is successful has made their share
Forgive yourself ,eventually others will too
act like a victim and this is all you deserve ,thats all you'll ever have
When I was 23 I lost my first wife and my 3 kids
when I was 34 I lost my second wife
At 35 I had my kids back ,,and now I am a super Dad
and grandpa ,,all my grandkids are now almost grown
Who do you think they look to for guidance ?
The man who has been there ,made a lot of mistakes
but I overcame ,,I did not let it end me

don't be discouraged ,,I know most young people don't like me saying this ,,,but you won't even really know who you are and what you want till around 30 -35 ,,then it all starts making a little more sense ,,your mind is finally mature
We put away childish things ,and act like adults
at least the wise ones do ,some prefer to remain kids