Why just Why [I Am a Survivor of Child Sexual Abuse]

After all these years if I could ask my mom one question it would be why.

Why did...
... you become friends with guy that was talking to me at the park?
... you invite him to our house to drink and talk about me?
... did you encourage me to show him my room after the two of you talked about how good id feel to him?

Did you not know you would ruin my life and destroy my childhood did you even care?