I feel like I had decent control on everything going on in my life but now it's all collapsing.

Thinking we have tight control of life is dangerous. There's so much we're not able to be in control of, that we only ever control the minority of things. When things do go wrong, and that illusion is shattered, it can be very upsetting and confusing. Perhaps you now have options to control some of what has gone wrong, but if you don't, you don't.

I know the feeling. Two weeks ago we decided I am not meant to get a teaching license. I have a BSE-major of Special Ed. I don't think I'd be happy as an aide-jealous. Now playing "What Do I Want To Be When I Grow Up?" My path changed a few times, but I truly felt this was my career.

Hope you'll be ok . I know that feeling all too well

All things are transitory. You're going to feel differently before long. Just hang in there. How is school going?

What's wrong. You can PM.

How is your um.... how is that going?

what's going on ?

It will come to you. Stress blocks solution. Relax and just let life happen for awhile.

Life controls us although the opposite illusion is what we believe....

You don't know what's happening ?

You're thinking too much about it and the more you care, the weaker you become.