Do you think your life is meaningful?

I can't really say. I'm inclined to say no, but meaning is a highly subjective thing. While my life isn't all that meaningful to me, there's a small possibility that it's meaningful to others I interact or have interacted with.

Even though I don't talk to her anymore, I am the person that made my mother a mother. I was her first born. I gave her that identity. That doesn't count for nothing. Maybe my impact on others is less drastic, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's devoid of meaning

I seriously don't know what to think about it. I mean, life is so beautiful, but still so meaningless. The only purpose that I could find with in my life is death. Eventually, I'll be dead, and all my memories, all my feelings, all my history could simply disappear. Still, I'm alive now, and all those things are happening now. That's I just enjoying living my life as good that I can stead of searching one bigger purpose or meaning in my life.