how i have recovered from the bad side of life.
normally i rant on here but im going to tell a story instead.
so my name is haruna im currently 14 years old and im from japan. in november 2 years ago i lost my father and became a orphan. i had lost my mother back when i was 8 years old. both loses hurt bad and unless you have been through it your self you wouldnt understand. but at least with my mother i had my father there to help me get through it. but upon loosing him it was different as for the first time i was alone and had to recover on my own. i do regret how i acted in the month after his passing. i was agressive and took out my pain on others when i was training. and i was sent to live with a cousin and her pen pal in england and that was the last the thing i had needed.
its been about 1 and a half years and i have been able find my self and set my self a goal in life. i chose to continue cycling and practicing karate to keep my self fit and complete what my dad wanted to do but gave up on to raise me. i have even found that i enjoy teaching younger kids some of their stances and techniques.
i have been able to get very good at playing the violin which i begun to learn after she died in her honor as it was by far her favorite instrument and she could play it as well. im no where near as good as her but i think she would be proud to see how much i improved since the last time she would have heard it. i will admit i practiced violin to get my mind off all the bad thoughts that kept running through my mind and the sounds helped sooth my mind.
in school i joined the music club where through the year we practice to perform in a summer concert. last year i was able to play some of my favorite pieces and even sang some songs i love.
i managed to pull my self out a hole that i think if i had stayed in would have led to taking my own life. i do still get lonely and it dose still hurts. i dont think i will ever fill that hole, but it dosnt mean i cant try to. i know things could be worse. but i know things can get better.
im sorry that this was a bit of a long story, but i think some people need to hear this.
so my name is haruna im currently 14 years old and im from japan. in november 2 years ago i lost my father and became a orphan. i had lost my mother back when i was 8 years old. both loses hurt bad and unless you have been through it your self you wouldnt understand. but at least with my mother i had my father there to help me get through it. but upon loosing him it was different as for the first time i was alone and had to recover on my own. i do regret how i acted in the month after his passing. i was agressive and took out my pain on others when i was training. and i was sent to live with a cousin and her pen pal in england and that was the last the thing i had needed.
its been about 1 and a half years and i have been able find my self and set my self a goal in life. i chose to continue cycling and practicing karate to keep my self fit and complete what my dad wanted to do but gave up on to raise me. i have even found that i enjoy teaching younger kids some of their stances and techniques.
i have been able to get very good at playing the violin which i begun to learn after she died in her honor as it was by far her favorite instrument and she could play it as well. im no where near as good as her but i think she would be proud to see how much i improved since the last time she would have heard it. i will admit i practiced violin to get my mind off all the bad thoughts that kept running through my mind and the sounds helped sooth my mind.
in school i joined the music club where through the year we practice to perform in a summer concert. last year i was able to play some of my favorite pieces and even sang some songs i love.
i managed to pull my self out a hole that i think if i had stayed in would have led to taking my own life. i do still get lonely and it dose still hurts. i dont think i will ever fill that hole, but it dosnt mean i cant try to. i know things could be worse. but i know things can get better.
im sorry that this was a bit of a long story, but i think some people need to hear this.
