What’s stopping you from being the best person you could be?

A disease eating my spine and no one believing me how much pain I was in
so I drank and took medication not prescribed to me
If I was not able to work ,even my Dad who broke his back
said I was sorry (every time he seen me I was drinking )
I was complaining about how bad my knees hurt .no one wanted to hear that either ,an xray ,xray say "perfectly healthy knee)
So the sent me to shrink after shrink ,drug program after drug program ,but I cooperated ,I wanted them to get it
I was already getting drugs ,I needed help

Finally in 2013 I made a doctor so mad he ordered a full body MRI .He was not expecting what they found

12 decompressed discs ,both knees bone to bone ,spurs in both shoulders , impingement syndrome in the right shoulder

And a collapsed lower lobe of my left lung

I am not even going to tell you the cause of the disease
I am tired of being mad about it

It can all be summed up to I am a Vet no one gave a crap about ,it was easier to sweep me under the rug then just send me for an MRI

There’s an inner demon I’m fighting at the moment and he is one strong bastard.

Some things I need to work on.. which are getting worked on slowly.

Too much effort

Stop partying too much!

My lack of flintsones vitamins.

Self loathing

Fear insecurity

I'm not perfect but my motivation is to try to be perfect only just to improve myself but, still I will never be perfect like anyone else no matter what it is but try to be perfect is just a Motivation.

Nothing I all ready am