Have you ever suddenly lost someone very, very close to you?

Yep. Lost all 4 of my grandparents, had a friend kill himself and had my entire friend group abandon me all during a similar period of time.

I coped by abusing drugs, self harming, binge eating and several suicide attempts. Eventually I got the help I needed and am doing just fine now after being able to accept the past.

Yes it did get better.

Yes. The raw pain eases with time but the sadness is always there.

Yes, two very dear friends. I tried to keep busy, but even after 10 years, I still miss them.

It gradually got worse .. before it started to make a turn for the better

Yeah.

I dont know. Yeah it gets better but it can leave you scarred.

Badly. With time it did