I don't feel good.
馃槥December is approaching and I'm afraid. Scared and I don't know what to do. Maybe my past life is catching up to me once again. All those failures and regret's.
These days I feel like I've lose my self, more like lost my soul. There are things I don't understand and sometimes I wonder what I'm doing in this world. Sometimes I don't get the meaning at all and I ask my self, what the hell is going on?how can I think like that?am I being a senseless person?.
There are days when I don't have any motivation at all. I just want to go somewhere quite, a small island maybe, just drifting in the seas staring at the plain blue sky all day long under the sun. Yes far away from the busy world. 馃Maybe I should become a hermit or a monk, but I'm not willing to give up my life just like that.
I'm angry at my self for being weak and giving into suns again and again. I will scream inside and ask where are all the good things? Where's the good me. Trying desperately to find any good moments or anything positive things in my life so as to feel better. Wish I could say that I'm doing alright but I am not.
馃様These days I'm just so tired. So tired. Feel like I've lose all my feelings. Nothing get's to me. I swear I could just lie down in bed all day or just stand and stare at nothing without doing anything. 馃When was the last time I felt happy. Man~ so tired that I can't even sleep during the mid-day.
馃槱These are hard times indeed. So tell me, are these signs of someone who have had enough, somebody who is doing his best to stay positive, a person who wants to be good by resisting temptations by doing good or a person who is about to give up馃槦.
One final note that I'll like to mention is - I do believe good things will happen to me if I keep up the good fight. And I know that somebody above is watching over me and is always with me. 馃様That's all for now.
These days I feel like I've lose my self, more like lost my soul. There are things I don't understand and sometimes I wonder what I'm doing in this world. Sometimes I don't get the meaning at all and I ask my self, what the hell is going on?how can I think like that?am I being a senseless person?.
There are days when I don't have any motivation at all. I just want to go somewhere quite, a small island maybe, just drifting in the seas staring at the plain blue sky all day long under the sun. Yes far away from the busy world. 馃Maybe I should become a hermit or a monk, but I'm not willing to give up my life just like that.
I'm angry at my self for being weak and giving into suns again and again. I will scream inside and ask where are all the good things? Where's the good me. Trying desperately to find any good moments or anything positive things in my life so as to feel better. Wish I could say that I'm doing alright but I am not.
馃様These days I'm just so tired. So tired. Feel like I've lose all my feelings. Nothing get's to me. I swear I could just lie down in bed all day or just stand and stare at nothing without doing anything. 馃When was the last time I felt happy. Man~ so tired that I can't even sleep during the mid-day.
馃槱These are hard times indeed. So tell me, are these signs of someone who have had enough, somebody who is doing his best to stay positive, a person who wants to be good by resisting temptations by doing good or a person who is about to give up馃槦.
One final note that I'll like to mention is - I do believe good things will happen to me if I keep up the good fight. And I know that somebody above is watching over me and is always with me. 馃様That's all for now.
