I Can't Sleep
It seems that I am too sad to sleep, despite being very tired. Using the word "sad" to describe myself sounds really.. sad honestly lol but what I feel is actual sadness and it's rippling through me in large waves.
Right now, I would really love to bawl my eyes out. Just have a good cry by myself and let it all out. But I just don't have the energy to, and even if I did, how long can you keep crying about feeling sad? Sounds like a dead end to me.
You're probably wondering why I'm even sad in the first place. I wish I knew. Haven't quite figured it out yet. I can feel myself feeling sorry for myself, and I hate doing that.
I dunno guys. I just want a hug and some comfort, but I also don't want to burden anyone with my issues. Everyone has enough on their plate and I know I can be overwhelming at times. I complain so much sometimes, I wonder how people don't get sick of me. The last thing I would want to do is drive my friends away from me. I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that it would be better for me to detach from everyone as to not set myself up for more pain in the long run.
And it's sad cause I can feel myself becoming resentful at the people around me who usually push me around. I've just had enough of everything. I don't care anymore but my anxiety still gets the better of me.
I guess I don't really know what to do about this. I don't know how to improve my mood or go to sleep. And it's pretty painful to get through as it is. I don't really know what to hope for anymore.
Right now, I would really love to bawl my eyes out. Just have a good cry by myself and let it all out. But I just don't have the energy to, and even if I did, how long can you keep crying about feeling sad? Sounds like a dead end to me.
You're probably wondering why I'm even sad in the first place. I wish I knew. Haven't quite figured it out yet. I can feel myself feeling sorry for myself, and I hate doing that.
I dunno guys. I just want a hug and some comfort, but I also don't want to burden anyone with my issues. Everyone has enough on their plate and I know I can be overwhelming at times. I complain so much sometimes, I wonder how people don't get sick of me. The last thing I would want to do is drive my friends away from me. I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that it would be better for me to detach from everyone as to not set myself up for more pain in the long run.
And it's sad cause I can feel myself becoming resentful at the people around me who usually push me around. I've just had enough of everything. I don't care anymore but my anxiety still gets the better of me.
I guess I don't really know what to do about this. I don't know how to improve my mood or go to sleep. And it's pretty painful to get through as it is. I don't really know what to hope for anymore.