what do you hate about yourself?

that i am nearly completely self reliant or self sufficient and most times see zero reason for having other people around. it makes me appear colder than i am. i also can't bond or connect with anyone deeply.

i am overly realistic and very very conscious and aware of everything and incredibly honest tactfully so, but super honest with myself and everybody else.

nearly nothing "bothers" me. i know or am told i "should" be bothered by thigns, but when others are unnerved or outraged or upset. i feel absolutely nothing at all.

i sometimes hate that i can't feel anything from anybody, not even a blip, and i have to get all of my social cues from learning their body language, waiting for them to say things outright(hard when most are bullshitters, beat around the bush or passive aggressive)or to gauge from their behavior (hard when peope act irrationally and then attempt to take it back, my mind finds it NOT indicative of whatever verbal emotional they have expressed and it doesn't "compute" properly for me. therefore if they say they "love" or like me, then get upset and say mean thigns or DO mean things, i disregard that word coming from them in most cases nearly entirely from that point on. i operate mostly on logic, versus emotion.

i don't exactly "hate" these things, in fact i've come to accept them all. but if i had the opportunity to alter or change them in ways that might make my life easier, i might do that. yes.

SheCallsMeCrushDaddy · M

i have a tendency to be overly prideful and self absorbed. some narcissistic traits.

JupiterDreams · 31-35

My lack of personality, that I can never be satisfied, that I can't succeed at anything, I can't make genuine connections with people, I don't trust anyone and hold a cynical view of everything, also being too quiet, depressed and anxious and over-think everything.