Im sorry, so freaking sorry

I've pushed good people away because I didn't want them to see what I've become what my depression has turned me into. I didn't want them. to deal with their issues while also worrying about me. but it's a common fact that the demons might actually bring me. down push me. into that abyss and cause my mind to further deteriorate until theirs nothing sane left. I'm sorry , so sorry to everyone I've finally been compromised after years of holding them back and fighting them the demons, the voices. I'm just sorry for letting everybody down truth is I'm lost and confused and for the first time in my life afraid. 😔😔😔😔😔