I think sometimes people forget that there are just some people built to be smaller.

@AntisocialTroll I haven't gone to the last 2 sessions because I've been feeling under the weather. I'm going to try to go to the next one

@apersonnamedit Please do your best to keep your appointments, it's really important for you to get help with this.

Dodging appointments is not wise.

@AntisocialTroll I'm pretty sure when I come in next I'll be asked about it. I did gain about half a pound so I think these boost drinks for breakfast are helping

@apersonnamedit Half a pound is a start but you know yourself it's nowhere near enough, you need to address the bollocks and lies your head deceives you with in order to get this under control, you need to be talking to someone regularly.

Please keep your next appointment, you really don't wanna end up accidentally starving yourself to death simply because you dodged getting the help you need.

@AntisocialTroll I think I'm going to ask about that next session. I want to ask why I always end up self sabotaging myself. I'll start out great and the I'll ruin it

@apersonnamedit I think that's a good idea.

I suspect the minds side of your anorexia is part of why you start well but then don't keep it up, by dodging your appointments you have no one challenging your minds erroneous beliefs, so it allows you to kid yourself that being the weight you are is okay really, when it clearly isn't as you are suffering from things physically due to being so underweight.

@AntisocialTroll I think you're right with the I dont have anyone to push me. My family pretty much gave up and my boyfriend doesnt want to alienate me.

That's probably why I'm sick physically at the moment. I've been short of breath, coughing and running a fever

@apersonnamedit This is why you need to be talking to your counsellor, people like your parents and your bloke aren't trained in how best to help you overcome this, you need professional help to get your mind right in order to deal with your weight.

You gotta stop dodging appointments and care enough about yourself to get the help you need in order to recover.

@AntisocialTroll I guess it's either that or hospitalization. I probably could be put away

@apersonnamedit Would you prefer to be hospitalised? I know if it was me I wouldn't but are you hoping they will get you in for it for some reason?

@AntisocialTroll it unfortunately might be the only way at this point. It wont be fun and I'll probably hate it but it might be the only way

@apersonnamedit I don't envy you, I hope that whichever way it happens you manage to get the help you need.

@AntisocialTroll I was looking online at bmi's for anorexia and since I'm just a shade under 16 I'm considered severe. I think it said 13 and under is where the body starts.to shut down but I've already been having issues regulating temperature and some heart palpitations

@apersonnamedit One of the biggest problems is that once you are where you are, going from 16 to 13 can happen really frighteningly fast and you're buggered before you know it.

Also whilst the risk gets bigger the lower you go even at 16 your body isn't coping well, for you personally dropping any lower might just be too much, you need to be dealing with this now if you've a genuine interest in living.