Sometimes I think I was chosen by God for the house of my husband

I hate debts. I hate taking anything from anyone. The debts which these stupid people's can't clear in 15 years, I cleared in just 1 year because I hate debts and I hate taking anything from anyone. I would rather be hungry than taking anything from other people. I have a thinking to not to take anything from anyone until and unless it is related to someone's life. If I have to save someone I will surely take anything from anyone but in other I will starve to death but I will not take anything from other. Everybody are struggling, I don't want to use anything of anyone. I am drunk by the way.