I think i just discovered something about my self.

Iv been distracting myself with the belief i can take the wieght of everyone around me and still maintain. I dont need to do that. Iv been overlooking my own needs assuming il always be alright. I got distracted thinking its my job to change the world because i found strength when in reality i created this strong shell thats slowly disintegrating from the inside out because i stopped tending to myself. Now that i write it out im understanding. Maybe this was the reason for this pattern of thought. This was the purpose.