I will share one of the meanest thing I have done in school. Do you feel it was really very mean or I was still very young?

Back in 2014, when I was in 9th grade, after school hours I used to stay back in school from 3:30 to 4:30 pm as I used to learn Tabla. Tabla is an Indian classical instrument which I used to learn in my 7th to 9th grade days. But there was a boy named Hrishikesh who was in 2nd grade and used to come to learn tabla as well. I was really childish and kinda weird so Hrishikesh used to often punch me and act tough to me. The punches were painless. He used to often run to me and punch me and go away. Sometimes Hrishikesh couldn't play tabla properly so teacher used to scold him and I used to laugh at him and he used to open his eyes broàder as he used to be angry and later pùnch me again. But sadly I used to get bullied by my class boys especially by my enemy Arjun a lot back then. One day Arjun bullied me so much that I was in very bad mood. So that day when in tabla classes Hrishikesh tried to punch me, I got angry and punched him hard. At first he seemed shocked and again tried to hit me. But I pùnched him hard again 2 more times and that made him back down. His eyes were a bit red probably he was about to cry but he actually didn't. I got more of a bùlly mèntality and during next tabla class again I hit Hrishikesh from behind and laughed at him and made funny faces at him. That day he made a crying expression and complained to table teacher and I got scoldings. Whats weird was that both those days when I hit Hrishikesh the weather here in Bangalore was dark and cloudy. I remember showing him my fist and he used to be really scared as he used to open his eyes broàder in fear. He started getting scared of me completely. Yes because of getting bullied I have often misbehaved or even beaten others. The last time I saw Hrishikesh was on 1st April 2015, during my 9th grade exam result day. After that he changed school and they changed area too. Yes they used to live in the apartment opposite to the tuition classes where I used to go for Math. But I started feeling extremely sad about it after I listened to the song From The Inside by Linkin Park in mid 2015. Thats because the kid in the music video of song looks so similar to Hrishikesh and I was feeling what if he stopped trùsting people and started feàring every older boys because I was much older and bigger than him. I used to be very angry on myself for hitting him like that and couldn't even saying him a sorry. I couldn't listen to From the Inside in 2015 and 2016 as I used to remember those days and feel extremely sad and angry on myself. Thankfully I got good friends in 11th and 12th grade from my class so I moved on from it.