You know what’s sad

I hate talking about how I really feel to family because they will dismiss everything. I told my mom maybe if I took some anxiety meds that maybe I wouldn’t feel the way that I do. And she said I quote “you can controlIt, do you want to be a pill popper for the rest of your life.” Now I feel freakin stupid for even bringing it up. This is part of the reason why when I go to the doctor I don’t bring it up because I feel like it will get dismissed. I almost feel like that if I say something people will think I’m doing it for attention when really I just want it to STOP.