When did the absurdity and meaninglessness of life finally dawn on you then ?

Actually, I’ve suspected it most of my life. I try to distract myself from those thoughts. I scare myself sometimes.

March 72, I discovered my parents thought I was a thief and didn't trust me, despite me being the only person in the house with any moral compass.

I would rather call it tragic. It is not meaningless because it is so tenuous.
Maybe when I understood some relationships were not as real as I thought, it became sadder than before.

About age 6