There is a creative and beautiful internal world I feel so far away from

The "doing" of life
The "being" of life

How we are being in each moment, is the being in the being. You have a choice in each moment to choose the being of that moment. The doing is doing, it's your perception and mind analysis that determines the value of that moment. You analyze, then place a meaning, after the doing, that then materialize the being.

So many demonize capitalist market, yet....that you can be allowed to bitch on this market, have free speech. This free speech is given by capitalist products. Your smart phone, devices, desk, bed, ....all are from this sapposed demon. It provides you comfort. ...

Then give up your heating, your communication, your transportation.
Live in a cave.....

We can have mind peace, living in a world of trade. It's how you be in each moment that gives you the creative peace of that moment.

It's your thinking...... your mind talk. ....not where your body is but where your judgment lie in your mind.

To be
To have no attachment
To have no judgment (allow life to unfold )

If living your life always feels costly to you then rethink what you should be doing instead.