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My Scar Journey...

In Janurary [image]A month ago [image]Recently[image]It's getting better. But still there. My depression has gotten better. But suicidal thoughts are still daily. But i thought it was best to stop mentioning here bc i knew it hurt so many of you. My scar is so self hatred that i want to hurt myself even more. But i have been taking higher meds. But i still feel ugly. I always see it. I always think about it. Extreme loss of motivation. Fixing my scar is what has made me become obsessive and ugly. Btw it hasnt healed. It fades. Then cracks and bleeds and its all red again. Its a slow nightmare process.
Rokasu · 36-40, M Best Comment
I may be too drunk to properly respond to this.

Take care of yourself alright? If I could take half of my soul and give it to you I would.
Ynotjenn · F
@Rokasu best answer ever 🤗

TeresaRudolph71 · 51-55, F
It looks like you've gotten a lot better, at least physically. I'm sorry I haven't read many of your posts, but what I see when I look at your pictures, especially the most recent picture, is not ugly, far from it. I think you look beautiful. Your scar is only a very small part of what I see in the most recent picture. Like someone else said, it's barely noticeable there.

I hope you feel better soon. Remember, there's so much more to you than that.
SoFine · 46-50, F
That is why the Gold in life, is to opt for deep stillness of your mind. To daily meditate can help to cease that constant mind chatter you listen to. You are so engaged in your mind chatter to see any different.
Your thoughts you have, drive you, you are so intense on them, they rob you of your life. "NO WONDER"...you suffer.

On YouTube are many music healing meditation to listen to, many to use, try Numeditation or Relax River.

To change your thinking, else your life will stay stuck and stagnant. Each day is new, yet your mind keeps you stuck on past hurts.

You can be your best friend in life, yet the story, the story of pain and hurt is kept on going by you. Till you realize that you get benefits from this pain, why the hell would you let yourself suffer, you are getting "goodies" in your suffering.

You can STOP... but you won't.
SW-User
What scar? I don’t see any scar in the last picture! It’s going away and your mental health is making progress. Don’t dismiss improvement.. you’ll get better! You’re strong enough and I know you’ll overcome this! Never stop moving forwards!
Poet626 · 31-35, M
It is healing well. I am sorry you are hurting. You seem to me to be a very attractive young woman. All we can ever do is take the genes and physical attractiveness we're given and make the best of it. Comparisons to others are useless, because there will always be someone who seems to have it better. Again, you are a very attractive woman. I hope you are able to talk to a skillful counselor, engage in healthy habits and see that you truly are a lovable and lovely person.
Tugasaki · 61-69, M
I too think of suicidal thoughts daily and I have depression.that being said your picture you uploaded is to me a beautiful woman just in need of a very strong hug.a whisper in your ear telling you I'm absorbing all your pain away. I wish I could do that for you .God knows I could use a big hug from anyone but I have no one around to make me happy or to just support me on my lower than lower days.hang in there.be my motivation to keep going.you are very special.
Gillian · 46-50, T
Everyone has scars to bear, just some more visible than others. I think scars are what make us human. And they make us stronger in some way too. They remind us who we are, where we come from, and perhaps some day, motivate us to move forward. I'm not going to tell you that everything is going to be fine or that you should just get through it. It takes time. Sometimes longer than the time we have here. And everyone deals and gets through things in their own way. The fact that you are still here, responding and interacting, is huge. Just stay strong, post and let it out here when you feel the need to. It helps to get it out, even if people do not understand. Just having someone listen, acknowledge and support is what we need sometimes. But the rest is up to us. We need to work through our own issues and hopefully one day see that silver lining. And for what it's worth, I think scars are beautiful if you can talk about it.
JimminyChristmas · 56-60, M
You look so sad in that last pic. You shouldn't let it get to you, I would be willing to bet that no one notices the scar. You have very classical facial features, a true beauty.
Tailspin · 36-40, M
But it will heal, sometimes it doesn’t seem to but all scars heal. Everything fades with time, it sounds facetious but as someone who battled depression for a while it is true
braveheart21 · 61-69, M
Something about you lady....

You are young...beautiful...and have a whole loving life ahead of you ...

A mantra i try to use often

DONT LET THE BASTARDS GRIND YOU DOWN...

FUCK THEM ALL OFF
Lostpoet · M
Dang. I didn't know, sounds like you've gone threw hell. You do still look beautiful and it has healed to the point of barely noticeable. Stay strong love.
Montanaman · M
👍👍 this has to help with your self esteem. I very proud of you for hanging in there.🤗💕
Tminus6453 · M
🤗...hope you get better to the point where those negative thoughts are a thing of the past❤
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SW-User
I’m so truly sorry ... you are beautiful. Keep going 🧚‍♀️
you are in no way ugly my dear
eli1601 · 70-79, M
Barely noticeable
MrGomco · 36-40, M
@eli1601 yes!
Nakedgamer77 · 41-45, M
You are absolutely beautiful!
Allelse · 36-40, M
Goddamn! I always forget how bloody attractive you are.
Allelse · 36-40, M
@JimminyChristmas Oh you snooping are you!?!? :P
Allelse · 36-40, M
@ScarletWitch Everyone has their type. 😉
JimminyChristmas · 56-60, M
@Allelse Not intentionally snooping. I was notified.☺️
ChatterinSeuss · 61-69, M
don't ever feel ugly sweetie. you are a gorgeous woman . depression is a hard battle and I wish you the best. scars are battle wounds you should wear with honor. You survived and it should make you that much stronger. Peace and love to you and get better !!
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SW-User
You look beautiful
SW-User
We're all with you
Tastyfrzz · 61-69, M
You are so beautiful. Scar or no scar. Deep wound cleanser works great btw. Kristin was in a bar one time and someone threw a bottle and broke her nose. She was very self conscious about it but it was beautiful on her.
Johnjo · 70-79, M
You must realise young lady you are a beautiful and desirable young woman you will be better one day please just enjoy your life, you have probably heard this before but if you need to talk to someone please message me
vetguy1991 · 51-55, M
Looks better
dommagic · M
I hope you find what you need to feel better, you deserve to be happy and enjoy life. I wish I knew something more uplifting and helpful to say but I’ll just say this, I hope you find whatever joy in life it is you are missing
SerenitiesScars · 31-35, M
SW-User
Obsessive sucks. I know that too well in my own personal experience but your scar has healed quite well. Almost reminds me of that character from the Last unicorn.
Gameknot · 56-60, M
I wish I had the words to help you. Just realize you are valuable. Your life means something. Win today before you worry about tomorrow!
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Johnjo · 70-79, M
Believe me you are beautiful I'm sincere about that
Jimgeneration60 · 61-69, M
JIMMY earler morning only checking to see if your feeling better?
Livingwell · 61-69, M
You are beautiful and special Emily. Always remember that. 🤗
Sorry to hear that, get well soon...and talk to me if you need help
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family ScarletWitch.🙂
MrGomco · 36-40, M
I see Scarlet, thanks for sharing
MrGomco · 36-40, M
@MrGomco you are beautiful! Is just a scar, don't pay much attention to that, life is more than a face, you can walk, you can see... Don't be shallow 😊😉
ronisme1 · 61-69, M
I think you are beautiful
I love your scar
Ryanoliver2011 · 26-30, M
I think you are hot
Oh my.. it looks hurt. How did you get that scar?
ScarletWitch · 26-30, F
@YukikoAmagi I did it to myself. It's in my journal part 1 and 2. Its a bit long. I cut my face. I havent attacked myself in a few weeks. I'm doing better.
Jibby · 56-60, C
Absolutely stunning I don't care what scar you have
aaarzooo123 · 31-35, M
No Scar can survive with you...
You are going to be scarless
Eric24ejt · 36-40, M
I think your gorgeous...
ScarletWitch · 26-30, F
Eric24ejt · 36-40, M
Yes I do. Whether you think so or not doesnt change my opinion.
JimminyChristmas · 56-60, M
What was the original cause?
SW-User
We love you.
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ScarletWitch · 26-30, F
@Jimgeneration60 you gave me a smile. :)
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