My life is wasting away.

You need to start exercising, it makes you feel amazing. Pick up an elliptical, you can get them for free if you look around, people buy them and then ignore them mostly, but they are wonderful, a whole body experience. Try using it naked, or only wearing underwear. Jogging is good too and gets you outside where you might meet other people.

self-medication is a thing but don't go any further than weed man, please

Thank you *takes a bow*

Dont give in to this notion. You can do better. If you can seek help immediately.