I Want to Be Happy

What i have learn in my 18 years is happiness comes from yourself. That you can't be happy unless you want to be happy. I remember when i was 13 and life was real hell. I was bullied at school, people wrote extremely rude messages about me on the cold fogged up windows of the bus, i was elbowed in the hallway and the gossip that made their days more entertained.
Their was many reasons why i was bullied (7th grade it had got out i had a crush on a girl! Plus i was already wearing guy clothes 24/7 since i was 12 and i was super super hyper.) I was depressed, i was even failing math! I slept all the time and lost so much weight that i could fit in an extra small t-shirt. I think around the age 16 that i realized that we don't chose our personality. People who are hyper are hyper, people who are a$$holes are just a$$holes. Do we really chose to favor a color or enjoy the type of music we listen to/tv shows we like? I think not, i think it's just who we are. And when we realized that the person we are is our trueself. You start to be happy, because we do the things that makes us happy. I watch anime/cartoons, read comic and manga, play with toys, skateboard, play anime/cartoon/sonic/animal cross games because they make me happy. I didn't choose to like those stuff it is just me and being myself makes me happy.

Happiness comes from giving your pain to One who understands what real pain and misery is.
Happiness comes in serving Him.
THAT'S where I go for mine. Honestly mon cher frère,
Pubèr Ü👦Ü

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