I Want to Be Happy

I would love to feel happiness again...to wake up in the morning and *actually* feel there was something to look forward to, that there was something to live for...a purpose in life. Dreams, hopes and ambitions just waiting to be fulfilled in a distant but bright future.

Instead I awake in the morning and the most I can hope for is that I can get through the day without mishap, where the future no longer exists, at least in the sense of looking no further than taking each day as it comes...where life is no longer lived, and has evolved into merely coping with one's existence. When you no longer live life for the sake of your own, but vicariously to avoid hurting someone else.

Will it ever happen again? I doubt it very much.

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KSPerson

Do you have any goals, anything to try for?

If not then you have nothing to feel fulfilled about having done it.

Maybe you should write down a few small things you'd like to achieve and then set yourself to doing that. The writing them down is actually very important too, it makes them real. Don't aim too high just little things to start with.

Wouldn't it be nice to go through a day with a list of things you want to do and tick them off as you do them? You'd look at the list at the end of the day and be satisfied with what you've achieved and maybe grateful for those you haven't done today because they are goals you already have.

The best thing is, if you start doing this and achieving your goals you never know where it could lead. Heck, there's something to be happy about already, the open road in front of you with endless possibilities, just waiting for you to take the first step.

ItReallyDoesntMatterAnymore · M

Thank you so much for going to the trouble of reading my post and posting the reply - I'll give it a try, though I can't promise anything...

Carissimi

May you find your happiness.

ItReallyDoesntMatterAnymore · M

God bless you :)

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