I Want to Be Happy

I Finally Realized...... I am not happy, I drink every night to feel something, to feel excitement, to feel happy. When I don't drink I get depressed, anxious, lonely even, no matter if I am truly alone or in a group of people. I am simply unhappy. I wish I could figure out a way to be happy. I have friends, I have a loving family who helps me out a lot, I have a job, I have hobbies, and yet, I am still not happy.

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prayerworx1

You are in a tough spot but not ones bad that it can't change.Alcohol is a symptom some greater issue. we use to change the way we feel because we are no longer comfortable in our skin. I was a meth addict for almost 17 years of my life. when nothing changes, nothing changes. First get rid of the alcohol. that way you can see what's goin on in your life without feeling numbed. I go to AA meetings tobhelp me, I work the steps of the program. if you knew my life before and what it is now, you would say its unbelievable. Even tho I still struggle with things in my life, I have peace, serenity and yes, I am truly happy.

talk143

I'm sorry to hear that you are not happy, it sounds like you are using alcohol to mask a much deeper problem. You sound like you have a lot of good stuff going for you- a good family, friends, a job and interests. Do these things make you feel excited when you think about them? when you think about 'being happy' how do you visualize it?

LadySarah09 · 31-35, F

My happiness is all in my music right now, its my sanity. Just yesterday I was so happy I got to sing at open mic night. That feeling of sure happiness when I am singing and playing music. It's like a warmth spreads over my body and I know I'm happy! I get that way sometimes, but it never lasts forever. Family not always, sometimes I just want me time, but my family wants to be closer to me, and my job, I get to see kids for a little while and that makes me kind'a happy I guess.
Thanks for your comment by the way... :)

parkhill

I feel like that too at times,

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