@Notladylike such a great opportunity to take in a day off, I was meant to have a day off and work on a project but I put my hand up for the extra shift because I鈥檓 thinking of now and not the benefits of the future. It鈥檚 like being stuck on auto pilot with that brain fart lol. Do you feel that way too?
I get like that in between obsessive research of topics. My last one was the power that thinking has over your life though, so I'm being very careful what I tell myself from now on.
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@KuroNeko You are not your thoughts Eckhart Tolle style
What moves me now in life is hope. Hope to be able to live one day the life I want with the person I love. Hope to be able to see one day that the world is a less shitty place.
It is that hope what moves me to stay healthy, because if my hopes may become true, and I am a human wreck, everything will have been in vain.
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@Cierzo that鈥檚 the thing bro, it鈥檚 almost I have no hope left, especially in a chaotic divided and conquered world and after a break up, and the dreams and future plans all down the dunny too. Now I don鈥檛 know wether to move into a share house with strangers or get a cheap unit in the western suburbs, surrounded by the life I have been steering away from for the last 22 years.
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@Cierzo [quote] everything will have been in vain[/quote] I have painted that sentence 5 years ago with the same thought (is live just all in vein) and it was back in the days when I was a coke addict which kind of also related to that painting.
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I wish we lived in the same country bro and we could just go get fucked up and I could bash him and you could bash her. At least we would feel better for awhile.
But it will happen again. You will fall in love again and so will I. 馃挋
It will get better, just do the best you can and don't focus on all of the stressors, easier said than done, I know. It's difficult with COVID, and life is not normal, but we can always adapt to our surroundings. You are still the same human, and maybe take up some meditation to quiet the mind? Stay safe and strong!
[quote]There just seems to be nothing exciting or motivating for me[/quote] That is called "anhedonia" I get it sometimes too. It's hard when things happen and you feel overwhelmed and hopeless. When it happens to me, I watch Youtube documentaries about the millions upon millions of families who live and sustain themselves in garbage dumps, or the bloated baby human skeletons in the horn of Africa. It helps me redirect my thinking a little bit. Still, sometimes I have to force myself to do the things I used to love to do, so I definitely understand.
