I Lost Someone To Suicide

I lost my sister almost 6 years ago... I don't remember a day that has gone by that I don't think of her for a moment. It's been hard. So many unanswered questions and feelings... I recently started going to a support group and it helps but I don't really feel like I have made any connections. I know these things aren't to make connections... But it's hard to not want one when the person who you had the strongest connection with... Decided that life was just too painful. It feels like I lost all my friends as well as my best friends... People don't want to talk to me because I either bring them down or I just made it awkward.

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Fernie · F

It's like it happened this morning....losing someone you were so connected to. I did not lose a biological sister...never had one...but I did have a "sister" for 45 years...she didn't have a sister either. We connected on that level though...from the moment we met...and introduced each other as "my sister"...then 4 years ago she frikkin died on me. I had NO clue how final death is...what do you mean I can't ever talk to her again??? I didn't go on and on about my loss but people really had a hard time with my grief...so, now I make it a special point to listen to people in that kind of pain...they just need an ear

Moregano · 31-35, F

@Fernie Yes exactly! Death... I never knew how final it was until I couldn't pick up the phone and call her. I wouldn't see her drive by or come over. It just like the world stopped... I don't always talk about my grief or loss but on days when I need to... Its like no one wants to listen. They will ask if I'm okay. Which I am. Just something will remind me of My sister and it will make the whole day horrible... And if I tell someone that, then they seem to get busy after asking and hearing what's going on.

Illusionsofthemind · 36-40, M

Ive lost quite a few buddies and friends to suicide. Not only that, but people i knew who Overdosed and died from drugs. I hope you are doing ok.

Moregano · 31-35, F

@Illusionsofthemind I am so sorry for your loss. =(

Illusionsofthemind · 36-40, M

@Moregano I have a brother who is a year younger than I. He has been struggling badly with hard drugs for 5 straight years. He has been in and out of rehab, recovery homes, homeless shelters, loss of jobs etc. He was recently kicked out of a recovery home because he was caught using. No one knows where he is now.

Moregano · 31-35, F

I am so sorry. I hope he shows up. I know the fear of wondering where someone is.

mrbuddhawannabe · 56-60, M

I'm sorry for your Loss and grief.

TexChik · F

How horrible! I can’t imagine the anguish you must feel . I have no siblings but losing one like that....😢. I hope you are getting better and moving on from this tragedy.

Moregano · 31-35, F

@TexChik I've learned that its hard to just move past the grief. It's everlasting. It hasn't gotten easier even after 6 years. I just feel more numb.

TexChik · F

@Moregano catestrophic events such as that cause physical damage . Maybe it’s time for a psychiatrist ... to jump start your brain’s Metabolism. I have PTSD , and it took a little help to get me back on track . 😊

Adaydreambeliever · 56-60, F

I really don't know how you begin to get over a loss of someone so close.. I can only hope that you find some way to continue

Moregano · 31-35, F

@Adaydreambeliever I'm not suicidal or anything. Just blue most of the time. It hasn't been easy.

Adaydreambeliever · 56-60, F

@MoreganoIt sounds really tough :( I think you know that the sadness is going to be with you a long time.. they say you never forget but that eventually it does get to the point where you can bear it a little easier.

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