I May Act Like I Am Not Sad When I Really Am Sad

My heart feels heavy today, and I don’t know how to explain it. I just feel like my life is going no where no matter how much I try. It just ends up going no where. And the house is emptier now because our roommate moved out (he was a tenant), but he was a pest a lot of times anyway. But at least he was someone to talk to when my bf was away at work. Now there’s no one, and we don’t really want anymore roommates. And we both work full time, and he has a video game addiction and barely looks at me when I talk to him.