I Am Sometimes Antisocial

I just want to be left the hell alone sometimes and then sometimes I complain about how alone I am?
Neurotic is the way I roll, I guess.
I am a harmless neurotic, the nervous, anxious type, you could say.
I prefer the company of one or two people to a whole crowd of them and sometimes I just want to hide away in my basement.
However, I don't.
I work, shop, and visit family members from time to time.
I push myself despite my problems, but still sometimes I just want people to go away.