[/center] BECAUSE....I'm the most sensitive, most emotionally fragile, most insecure girl in the world. Always fearful. Scared of rejection. Scared of being hurt. When doubts creep in, I shut down to protect myself....
BECAUSE..., 'tis what I know how to cope up. The rabbit hole is where I'm safe, at peace and comfortable; a monotonous life, no risks, no conflicts, no hurts. In solitude and quietude, I can recharge until I've gathered enough energy and self- confidence to face the world again. I will come out calm, resume life, make others happy, make them smile. Like everyone else, I also like to experience the world, to go on adventure, to love and to be loved. But when I perceive something off again, I go back to the rabbit hole.
BECAUSE I'm guarded, I won't let you get too close; enable you to break my walls. You can take a glimpse but you will never get to know the real me. But know that if I let you in, you are special. In time I share with you a treasure trove of life experiences and stories.
I'm hard to live with. I push people away and ruin relationships this way. But as the Little Prince says, only the heart can see what is essential, what is invisible to the eye.
Knowing and understanding yourself is half of life's battles. Once you know who you are you can start to change things one baby step at a time until you're who you always wanted to be. Trying to do too much all in once go will only lead to even more pain and disappointment. Be kind to yourself and stay safe. 🐇
I can only imagine what a difficult and occasionally frustrating reality. Obviously you have learned to cope and past hurts must have been horrible. I’m sorry. Life isn’t fair and people are capable of causing deep damage. I hope and pray that you find daily progress in grasping your value, how unique and special you are and how the power to reject you is yours to control.
The fear of rejection can be paralyzing, and the joy of stepping beyond the fear can be like none other. Like dropping a lead weight that anchors you to the bottom, preventing you from flexing with the swells and waves of the oceans.
