How can I stop being jealous and hurt seeing daughers bonding with their mothers?

I wish I had that love from my mother but she left my dad, brothers and I heartbroken. She walked out on us. Daughters need their mothers. My mother walked out on us almost 10 years ago and I'll be 18 soon. She wasn't there for me when I needed her especially during puberty. When I see daughers bonding with their mothers, it stings very hard. It felt like someone stabbed me in the heart and it hurts a lot because I wish I had that. I get jealous a lot seeing people with their mothers. My mom did drugs, broke promises and she let's us down. I wish my girl pals would stop bragging about how amazing their mothers are and talking about mothers day. It hurts me and they don't care. I would pretend that their moms were mine. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😡😡😡😠😠😠🤧🤧🤧