I Use Experience Project As A Diary
Day 4. April 10th, 2:09 am:
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I dont know how i didnt get that earlier but it just hit me today!! What am i gonna tell my kids about their grandparents ?! Obviously i wouldnt tell them how wicked and twisted they are because i dont want to plant the seed of hate inside their hearts but i took an oath to never show my kids to their grandparents and i did it to my mum and all she could ever say was "then id pray that you wont have kids then so none of us would see them" (yeah..thats more like her tbh).. Its not just about my kids..its about everything i love or important to me, i dont wanna share it with these guys.. Not going to graduation ceremony so i dont have to share my diploma with them.. I dont show them that im studying, i usually study when theyre not home or asleep so they would think that im gonna fail miserably and then succeed with flying colours, as usual.. I dont know why, but i like hiding all of thag from them and thats what im gonna keep doing with everything in my life.. Yet, what am i gonna tell my kids about them? Probably gonna lie and say they were good till my mini-mes grow up and be able to comprehend the truth.. Yeah :)
Physical check: good, coughing like a narcotic addict but inly because im was sick..
Mental check: hmmm now that ive answered this question then im all good..
Psychological check: Great, cheers for katelyn because shes the only reason for my happiness now :) love you babe
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I dont know how i didnt get that earlier but it just hit me today!! What am i gonna tell my kids about their grandparents ?! Obviously i wouldnt tell them how wicked and twisted they are because i dont want to plant the seed of hate inside their hearts but i took an oath to never show my kids to their grandparents and i did it to my mum and all she could ever say was "then id pray that you wont have kids then so none of us would see them" (yeah..thats more like her tbh).. Its not just about my kids..its about everything i love or important to me, i dont wanna share it with these guys.. Not going to graduation ceremony so i dont have to share my diploma with them.. I dont show them that im studying, i usually study when theyre not home or asleep so they would think that im gonna fail miserably and then succeed with flying colours, as usual.. I dont know why, but i like hiding all of thag from them and thats what im gonna keep doing with everything in my life.. Yet, what am i gonna tell my kids about them? Probably gonna lie and say they were good till my mini-mes grow up and be able to comprehend the truth.. Yeah :)
Physical check: good, coughing like a narcotic addict but inly because im was sick..
Mental check: hmmm now that ive answered this question then im all good..
Psychological check: Great, cheers for katelyn because shes the only reason for my happiness now :) love you babe
26-30, M
