Today was the day [I Hate Court Hearings]
My sentence hearing was today I’m in shock I’m about to spend 8 years in prison I feel empty knew this day was coming all year still doesn’t seem real I have 90 days to turn myself in. I have 90 days before I spend nearly a decade behind bars my nana could die before I’m free. I’m going to take these years to grow as a person and really better myself though. I hope to get into programs so when I do get out I’ll have a certificate or something and could start a career and turn myself around. I’m going to spend the rest of my 20’s in prison I’ll be 31 when I’m released I’ve been crying all day but know I did it to myself I’ve had so many chances and opportunities I got out of a prison sentence last year and only had a few months in jail instead I should have learned then. I had a really good friend on here who has refused to talk to me since my last arrest in December. I have family who has cut me off I’ve lost so much and did some many bad things I can only deal with it and move on I’m in such a surreal headspace right now I don’t know when I’ll turn myself in but I know it’ll be within 90 days and that haunts me
