I Am Socially Awkward

I don’t know but I’m swear I’m weird sometimes. Like I get irritated with people very easily you can do one little thing and it will irritate tf out of me .. and then like today my sister got a hotel for us and friends to chill and drink but suddenly I didn’t want to do it anymore I didn’t care to drink I didn’t care to smoke or anything I just wanted to chill and you know how people get mad because you don’t want to participate in ( Turn up) I’m thinking about cutting drinking completely idk maybe I’m in a awkward stage of life right now or I’m just growing up