I'm Easygoing

Before life was so drammatic but exciting, a little bit of confusion that resolves with in the day and trying hard to get what I want. But now, I feel a bit numb. It feels like life is easy. If you like someone but s/he doesn't like you back? Go and move on. I also don't over think of my problems even though it bothers me a lot. I am not that soft hearted unlike before and I thought because of these things I became stroger. But I was wrong. The more I tried to make my heart hard, the more I get easily to cry. My face has no emmotion but my heart hurts so much. I thought I can escape, but the more I tried to, the more I can not. Problems should be faced so we can solve it. There could be a help but not a shortcut. I want to be my old self. Putting efforts and giving my best. Unlike now, procrastination is my lifestyle. I want to be caring again. I want to love unconditionally again. I don't want to be numb forever. I want to risk